I have not said the word “Ma” out loud in 2 months, that was what we called you?

Ma, a big part of your sudden and sad passing was the surrealness of it as we do not understand how it could possibly be that you are gone, we could not believe that life has been going on, and we have now been living without you for 2 months - we still cannot believe it

Ma, we light candles for you on Tuesdays, we remember the trauma of that day and those that followed, when it all came crashing down as brutally hard as it has been to walk this new path without you - ?the grief we are feeling are profound and we are wondering when it would subside

Ma, life has becoming strange as time has not bringing relief or easing our pain, and life has reshaping itself around the massive hole in our hearts, a permanent wound that has been contracting and expanding - it is hurting the same, it is hurting so much, and it is hurting so much more