When i was twenty three, i was cut from the CFL after i was not drafted in the NFL , i had to move back with my parents in the small apartment in Tampa. And again dreams dashed, you work so hard and then somebody's saying that, well, you're just not good enough and then you got to go home. And at twenty three , you think life is over, i fell into a deep depression and i remember at that time ,um, the only thing i wanted to do was clean the walls , i grabed some cleaner and a rag and for days i would clean , i cleaned everything, it was just the only thing i can control , i found that with depression ,one of the most important things you should realize is that you are not alone. You're not the first to go through it . You not can be the last to go through it, and often times it happens you just, you feel like you are alone, and you feel like it's only you and and you are in your bubble. And , and i wish i had someone at that time, who , who can just pull me aside.Hey , it's gonna be okay, gonna be okay. So i wish i knew that just got to remember hold on to that fundamental quality of faith,have faith , and on the other side of your pain is something good.