I killed someone again，已經(jīng)不知道是第幾次了。
我曾經(jīng)以為經(jīng)歷了那么多年，我花費(fèi)了那么多事情，經(jīng)歷了那么多困難。I will never kill anyone again?？墒沁€是不行。I killed someone again。我控制不住我自己。我必須得控制住自己才可以。
Killing people really brings satisfaction?？晌艺娴牟荒茉龠@樣下去了。

i dont even know how to fucking comfort you because I am getting better and I cant relate anymore
語言限制了我的思考，而我又不得不依賴它
我用垃圾塞滿我的頭腦，這樣就可以暫時忘記死亡
自我被分裂成太多碎片

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